War reporterTim Leach; moving to a war zone

0:00 and one of my friends at itm who shall remain nameless did have too much in Iraq one Operation Desert Storm and he jumped up on the balcony on risotto window a really great reporter would he had too much I'm moving to was leaving town tonight moving to war zone jobs mine movie too hope I'll be all right wanna see my

1:04 pictures on the news at ten hope I'll be all right rates roll applause for a dose of bed Oh bubbie all right you're gonna see my picture on the news at ten I don't know when I'll see you

2:04 could hear something bullet solution design a little pictures on 10 I don't know when I've ever come again moving I'll be all right it's building this is where it all started this is where my dad didn't want me to come and it was because of albums like Bob Dylan's free winning Bob Dylan which he wouldn't allow me to have in the house no Bob Dylan walk and Please Please Me The Beatles first album that I really got keen on music but I snuck away cheated and lied to my dad and my grandmother was right on my site grandparents bought me this guitar and and I was off I was it was the sixties and it was mandatory you had to get into music and I was well into music thank you very much

3:33 as soon as I could actually I left highgate school with my bad a-levels and went off to to Africa and then very luckily bumped into a old friend who offered me a job with a program called roving report and I was intending to stay in Zimbabwe for about six weeks and ended up staying in Africa for about 16 years and I never gave up my day job my day job supported my guitar strings and my buying of guitars and I just loved at the end of the day sitting down with my guitar and I got better and it seemed that people didn't mind me doing that in fact I was quieting I was encouraged that they liked hearing my silly songs and over the years I got better Addison

4:36 and after a while it became insistent that I've brought a guitar and and I was doing commentary through my through my songs on the political situation where we found ourselves and yeah we had a we had fun we had we did have fun it was my day of doing shoots and stories about horrible things shia and sunni death squads have been engaged in a murderous cycle of tit-for-tat killing we we relaxed and wound down with with a few songs which would makes laugh or cry or get it out it was like catharsis it was it was essential and my psychiatrist said that if I had done that I probably wound up killing myself I saw in Mozambique she was so far gone she can hardly speak

5:39 I don't let go I was standing next to my best friend he was shot in the back by a don't know but unlike love you hard to see no justice in this country don't like that don't you understand his promised land I was watching the news of a TV I saw Bernama torturing me I don't like life I see people run but it out of this book others liberation struggles escapee other joke I don't like hard to do don't like let people that apply to a

6:47 closer one blemish other black people to occur on the street without any trouble by shooting double do anything year old Emanuel is a veteran Warner who stood vigil at all too many coffins so much death at so young an age has left an indelible mark I want to be an anc member I want to pay range of what they did to my brothers and sisters yeah yeah that's and should other address in our attention why do they shoot other people because Irish other people shoot others love Alice she's mad us because they not like seven I was working for IT another time Peter Sharpe and we went to Mozambique which was pretty hairy at the time because there was this conference we went in to do this story about what

7:48 was going on on how people were suffering caught in the crossfire anything and went to film in this hospital in a place called shy shy xai dash xai shy shy and garter all these emaciated children are they were in some of them malaria son man that in mind next limbs blown off an arm and it was just so grateful and it was dark in the hospital in the dead no fuel for generators they have very little equipment and very the bugger all medicine but anyway we got the story but then we just need these footy tonight oh oh god it's not like you I had a camera with some gum on top I turn on the Sun gun and this kid toddler whatever went

8:57 in shock cardiac arrest and died Peter I began selling my duct I said I change sled for about 10 minutes and I tried and tried and tried and boy did I need some release so we bout two hour drive back to maputo to the prior talkin believe it and the doctor was trying to sort of reassure me that wasn't my fault he would be dead by tomorrow nothing I never for me I still have dreams about I wrote a song that my turret song I've never feel myself I status unit I mean it would be better just to have no cure and ID began on something god I don't know the gunshot wound I seem I'm afraid of when writing that song we all were

10:00 shell-shocked medicham central don't blame yourself and let it out over the tops every night and decided to not invoke diversity of Anton something never the doctor did say several times take it he loved me that people dead by the morning Oh God I just had to switch it one step from reality and sable to go why I did that but I did daddy writing that song but did get some rest my turn gasoline the oldest even though we all sat on sat in the bar crying over our drinks that's a heavy

11:00 one that was mine it's a good day I saw a little she was so far as you can at least be another love whoa you don't thank you coming to town with all these good intentions you know your own a video Crusader has winner doesn't remember but all these songs are still singing them when the memories come flooding back when I saw what they've done with that footage I was really angry because

12:04 they hadn't they hadn't used it as I saw and Peter saw they should have used it they had just shown this this kid this emaciated kid and then cut to the dachshund going around the wards and I felt that was also make so many stories I've been involved with have been cosmetically rearranged for the average person to get the ratings going it's like tabloid television and I think they should show it like it is like we shot it there's so much of my footage that's been left on the cutting room floor because it's not it won't be acceptable to the general British Great British unwired and they they just distort things they distort things we need not killed getting that footage it just

13:06 really annoys me that they distortion sometime people need to know it hasn't this is happening this is real show it like it is they got great pictures but I wouldn't have gone so this guy gets wounded at least he doesn't die instantly he walks away and then is carried away he's no no no they finally brought in a tank through the passageway from the North fortress and the tank fired a couple of shells you know whom one shot two shot three shot and my dust goes

14:12 there's a body up here with 400 Taliban fighters being searched and given themselves up those same fighters torn to pieces body parts everywhere everywhere I mean there were bodies everywhere it was it was really a brutal brutal that fight was brutal I can't take any more of this I've just seen too much death I mean there are so kids being shot by yunita stuff like that I filmed it and they they set up this guy they just grabbed this guy off the streets of thing they said you know laughing away this guy is a boy soldier and she's from the government forces inspired and just starting to Peng but is good good footage feeling Jesus Christ man that was for me was it good no no no no no no and then Adam got shot

15:16 it was just too much and then side died just after a few shots of Irish whiskey in a few shots of diamorphine I just went I didn't play a song and leave a note and her son a song amount i put the camera on a tripod and just very roll I just sang a song and yeah I went off to this minefield on me on the edge of town but I stand to a night nothing was there yeah when they grant landmines they think in the rainy season they move I think they just move it so it's it's it's unbelievable so it was obviously the God said it was not my time and I eventually they they found me in the four-by-four slumped in the car park and took me upstairs and put me to bed yeah I have two of these what are they

16:20 valium okay slept it off and then accept explain myself the morning and said I've had enough so they kind of gain a couple of days to recover an in-house back home because I wasn't staff I was contract if I'd been staff then I would have got all the treatments in the world that I needed for post-traumatic stress but because I was contract freelance contract they couldn't give a flying [ __ ] and there anything that kept me safe was it this guitar was given to me by itm I'm after I came out of Maga beach hotel my body's hotel was quite a quite an awesome place called Chikurubi in Harare it's a maximum security prison either with a bicycle attached to a generator and they make you bicycle to give yourself electric shops otherwise they last you have died I died just I'd

17:24 it's just unbelievable it wasn't for this guitar music I wouldn't be able to to survive a very lucky least for me luckily CH because I survived and when lots of my friends didn't

18:27 all my friends are either dead let's say and fine wanna be on but the cameraman it's the most important person in television you see because if you don't have a camera the other pictures you don't have a

19:29 television useful seeing so much blood that's door death about too much one screaming one stream so obscene down in testosterone alley sarajevo from you you can't even shoot straight i can hardly walk go insane shouting at the snipers at the top of my I had no choice need the money I'm a media [ __ ] send me back up to 2,000 pounds a day coming my way you think

20:33 about the money not the suffering all the carnage that away buying it on man its haha save my sanity I've had it so long I need some comfort I need to say it out the fastest in the offering that's what I'm talking about let me make a difference I hope so think so because when TV comes down then people do want the next and the men smell of evil in testosterone they do I linux too many wars lumps too much blood what

21:37 the world to be different it's all such shittin if I'd known about what I was going through at the time which I knew nothing about what I saying I just I just felt lousy and and mixed up and confused and it's a macho world television news it's a really mature well and yes I haven't got a clue actually I just I just wanted to to be successful I wants to prove my father wrong and I wanted to change the world but unfortunately it doesn't quite work like that and I came very unstuck to the extensive firm I would just hunker down

22:38 in my hotel room and cry and shiver and Shake and drink I got Katara South African because a lot many good pictures of the police behaving atrociously I mean way way beyond the Geneva Convention and we went there it was unbelievable but term I didn't realized wonder what would a toll it was taking on me eventually the BBC made an offer I couldn't refuse so I TN I got advanced one of the itm was crumbling on it so I'm joined the baby bc and they gave me more money and i was married at the time and i was just going off the rails were didn't realize it it was really getting to me was really getting me but i still got the exclusives I suppose after about oh god I left in 1984 and came back here in

23:39 2004 so yeah I always seem to come back to Highgate it doesn't matter where I've been and where I go I seem to go from from Highgate to Africa to Kosovo and then back to my gate again Tobias Eaton crime just wrap for my parents live in Austin Green reserve Nico so far away from a b-17 and that I shall be released in August 2011 Tim

24:42 jumped out of a third-floor windows of the hospital in which he had been stained who was taken to hospital I'm so badly injured they decided to induce him into a coma and the 23rd of August Tim trying to be a good man

25:42 pillar of my father chose the narrow so sighs he is is the methods I chose barroso now I find myself alone somehow baby I seem to be cry it's unlike these my damage so just turns my thoughts more ways what did I let down my ideal so easy like I wasn't even to the mirror I know who fail to see that I am ready

27:06 trying to be a good man inside the heart truth my friends grew up married right try to be a good man I looked around guys no one knew just one see surviving through the sixties all iced over comfort was alive I'm betting father soon hit my mind inside someone else's when did I let down my ideal so easy like I wasn't even do the mirror who fail to see that I am heir to die